Kate Allen

Stop Believing Your Thoughts. Your Brain Lies.

Written by Kate • May 14, 2020 •
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Although I know this, I keep having to learn it. Yesterday was an interesting day, full of lessons I’ve already learned but get to keep learning in new contexts. Yeah! (Not!)

What Are Your Old, Familiar Thought Loops?

I have young kids and they don’t seem to want to clean up after themselves. Their toys are everywhere. The spilled juice spots are multiplying every day, like rabbits. Their kitchen table chairs are stained. I’m noticing all of that and then my brain appears to be saying, oh, we’re doing that? Cataloguing all the things that need to be “fixed”? “Addressed?” “Done?” It says, great, I’m in! Let’s do this! We’re so good at it!

These thoughts started to swirl, coming up faster and faster: I have to mow. I have to do my yoga. I have to relax. The kids need attention. When will I have time to prepare dinner? You know, it’s been a long time since you changed their sheets. Their bathroom sink is a mess. When will you have time to run to Costco? Have you called (my) Dad recently? You need to tweet more! What else did we plan to do today? Will it get done today? And on and on and on.

Next thing I know, my stomach is clenching up, my shoulders are hunched, and I’m “checking” FB for an hour, and I’m resisting urges to have a glass of wine at 4pm or snack just before dinner. Now my plan for the day is definitely blown because at no point did I budget an hour for random FaceBook mindlessness.

What Have You Made These Thoughts Loops Mean and What Are Your Resulting Feelings?

As soon as I muster enough consciousness to put the phone down and become aware of my thoughts, I spiral into overwhelm and despair and old familiar thoughts like, “see, I told you you can’t get it all done.” “There’s too much to do and you’ll never get it all done.” “just stop trying”.

Become Aware of the Thoughts and Detach From Them

But with lots of practice, I know what to say. First, I feel compassion for this part of my brain and I send love and compassion to it. No more hating on any aspect of me. No more derision. Just love.

So I notice the thoughts and I notice myself starting to believe the old familiar thought loops and now I just say, “No”. “That’s not true and it’s never been true”. I treat it like a child and say, “we can think better thoughts”. “Let’s stop with old familiar thought loops WHICH HAVE NEVER HELPED EVER”.

And honestly, I feel like my brain (like toddlers) gave me a sly smile and it felt something like relief for my brain to know that I’m charge and I won’t let this thought loop continue any longer.

Find the Thoughts’ Opposite and Try Those Thoughts On

Because I know about the mind and how it is constantly seeking evidence to support our belief systems, once I’m aware of my thoughts, I like to try a version of the Turnaround, from Byron Katie’s The Work.

I take a thought and come up with its opposite. For example, “there’s so much work to be done, I’ll never get it all done”. The opposite of that for me is “I can get everything done that needs to get done so long as I keep at it, slow and steady. Not everything needs to get done right now.” And I start to think of all the things I have gotten done and I find evidence to support this opposite thought. I think how I’ve accomplished so many tasks that I’ve wanted to and itemize all that I’ve done: kept meditating for over an hour daily for the past 3+months, added in mowing to my schedule, keeping up with my yoga, listening to the podcasts that support me, and on an on with evidence to support this opposite thought.

And I find the opposite thought and evidence to support the opposite thought for several of the other thoughts, as necessary. And I remind myself that I don’t need to believe my thoughts. Or even continue to follow my thought loops and whirlwinds, while the mind just keeps chattering away at me like my 5 year old. On and on with the stories. And not much of it is true. Or important. My brain and my 5 year old just want to keep talking to me.

Detaching From Your Thoughts Shows You Their Powerlessness

As I continue to detach from my thoughts, like Eckhart Tolle exerts us to, I again become aware of just how unimportant my thoughts are. How inaccurate. How repetitive. How unnecessary so many of them are. And I just drop my need to follow them and I focus on doing what’s before me, the laundry, the mowing, cleaning up the spills, the writing.

In Comes Presence

And when I move my focus from my thoughts to the task at end, a joy steals in to my body and I no longer am thinking about a past that’s gone and a pretend future that will never make me happy in the present. I’m just here. And I drop the story and rest in the task.

So much joy here in this moment.

Nothing You Do Will Fill The Empty Hole in Your Heart

Written by Kate • May 12, 2020 •
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I, like most other people, search here and there, near and far for something, ANYTHING to fill that hole in my heart. You may not yet be acquainted with that hole but it’s there. It’s the one that tells you need to be richer, thinner, more successful, striving, in a relationship, married, divorced, a parent, highly educated, or anything other thing that will make you better, make you different than you are now.

But all of that is a lie. The hole in your heart will not ever be filled by anything you do to fill it. And that’s why you’re over drinking, over eating, over spending, or on social media too much, doing anything that gives you some relief from that message that you’re not enough right now, as you are.

You are all you’ll ever be and and anything you’ve ever wanted to be is already inside of you. Now is the time to stop trying to fix yourself. There is nothing you have to “DO”. Instead, it’s time to be. Be yourself. Be present.

Be aware of the hole in your heart that is yours to heal through simple awareness of it and presence.

Be. Here. Now. There is no future that will heal you and no past that wounds you. Just timeless presence to what is right now.

Practice that for long enough and all the thoughts you have about being better and the utter suffering that arises from that will simply vanish. It will be replaced by boundless joy for longer and longer moments.

Stop doing. Start being.

What Is Your Relationship With Your Future Self?

Written by Kate • April 29, 2020 •
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This is something I’ve been mulling over lately. In the past, I’ve assumed my future self will be able to handle all the “mistakes”, bad decisions, over spending, over eating, over drinking, and under disciplined actions I take. I’ve thought that my future self will be wiser, better, richer, smarter, and healthier than current me. Can you relate?

But I see that my future self is dependent on what my current self decides, eats, drinks, spends, and does. My future self can’t be any wiser, smarter, wealthier, or healthier than actions that my current self takes.

So if I overspend now, my future self has to clean up my current self’s debt. If I overeat now, my future self has to deal with excess weight that my current self is willing to mortgage my future with. If I make decisions that cause me to go into debt, into over consuming in any way, then I’ve mortgaged my future self and handicapped her ability to make decisions from a place of abundance.

So I examined my belief and the thinking the supports it, that my future self will be handle my current thought errors and unsupportive decisions. And I made the decision that I want my future self to have a better class of problems, as Tony Robbins has said about the enduring presence of problems. We’ll always have our problems or our challenges, but we can have a better class of them. And I want that for future me.

I’ve written my future self a love letter from me now. I do want her to be healthier, wiser, wealthier, and more joyful than I now. But to do that, I’m tackling the obstacles I see before me now. I’m building muscles on how to be more disciplined and make wiser choices that help me delay gratification, build resilience, and live a life much more inline with our authentic self. I’m stepping away from habits of indulgence and short term thinking towards a life that is centered on the now, I no longer believe my future self can rescue me from habits that don’t support or serve me and yet that I deepen by repeating them day in and day out.

My future self won’t rescue me from myself. Only I can now. Here. In the Now. I’m doing all I can so my future self will be proud, happy, and bettered by the decisions I’m making now.

I love you, future self. Here’s to us and a better class of problems.

Drinking Booze and a Connection to the Divine #Coronavirus Thoughts

Written by Kate • April 24, 2020 •
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Earlier this year, from Dec 29 (of last year) to Feb 22nd, I gave up alcohol for a month.

I wasn’t a heavy drinker but I was drinking a minimum of 5 days a week and often 7 days a week. Mostly wine because the hard stuff is too strong for me but drank fruity drinks like cosmos or capiroskas. I spent two months in late 2019 in France so I had a lot of new wine to sample and it was simply delish. Their chenin blancs- wow. And the price! But I digress.

I gave it up for a month because I knew I needed to. I know drinking that much isn’t good for anyone, no matter how much people spin the resveratrol and all the hype.

And it was amazing. I learned so much about my habits about booze – when I’m out eating, have a drink! When I’m socializing, have a drink! When I’m feeling frazzled, have a drink!

But once I gave it up, I faced my habits and I had to feel my feelings rather than have a drink to take the edge off. Mind blowingly awesome to have given myself this experience. I also wasn’t as dehydrated as I had been. I slept better. My hormones felt more settled and I was happier.

But the biggest boost from this time is the absolutely huge amount of creativity that stirred in me and started to flow through me. I had so many ideas and new thoughts and my connection to the Divine, to Source, to God just lit up. My morning visualizations were turbo charged and my connection fairly sizzled throughout my abstinence. Wow, what a launch to the year.

And then in late February after some 6 or so weeks, I decided to have a drink again while I was out waiting for the kids to finish their yoga class. And then just boom, I was drinking again and by mid March, with the coronavirus/COVID-19 lockdown, I was drinking most days again.

My connection to the Divine was strained. My morning visualizations just fizzled. I felt so blocked and I haven’t blogged in a few weeks because I no longer felt any creativity. The connection felt muffled and I could simply not get through.

It took me a while to make the connection but I realized that the only real difference between January and now was the booze. I asked a friend of mine, a really gifted intuitive energy healer- Scott Clover– and he confirmed the reality for him too that drinking alcohol definitely affects his connection for the worse.

And so I’ve given it up again. This time it’s not for a certain length of time although I’ve made the commitment to check in again with me to redecide on 1 July.

I feel so much better. First, I’ve lost some weight I gained in the last month. I’m again less dehydrated. I sleep better. I have the time and more energy to do other things. And my connection is getting super charged again and I’m getting so many creative ideas again. I’m feeling super grateful.

One thing I noticed about drinking is that at a certain point, your time and energy is about drinking, making sure that you have the space and the time to drink. But once you don’t put any energy into drinking, there is so much more to do and so much energy to do it with.

I highly recommend trying it. See what’s under the covers of your life, without the blanket that is your mind on booze.

Using the Lockdown for your advantage- How to Set and Keep A Goal –

Written by Kate • March 30, 2020 •
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I recently read a post on FB about how now is not the time to keep exercising or learning how to play an instrument, because of anxiety and stress about the coronavirus.

This is, of course, a perfectly valid way to live your life. Give your brain free rein and let it freak you out and hijack how you spend your days. Living in fear, passing on fear to others, and making decisions out of fear (or stress or anxiety).

Or you can clean up your mental hygiene and give yourself permission to not freak out or indulge in your anxiety, even if the REST OF THE WORLD IS.

You simply (simple but perhaps hard to do) change your thinking about the situation. Rather than stress about what you can’t control, allow your mind to tell you what it fears, acknowledge that, and then consciously search out the opposite of the fears of what your brain is telling you. For example, you can say that the economy is tanking and global recession and job loss – feeling the total fear and anxiety from this. You can then look at where there are bright spots; government stimulus, grocery stores and online businesses doing really well. People able to continue working at home, helping neighbors, and more.

You Have 30 (or 60?) Days. What Will You Do With It

You have 30+ more days of this lock down. Do you really want to stress out and over eat and over drink to manage your anxiety? Or do you want to maybe come out of the lockdown with the ability to play the piano? Or having lost 8 lbs? Or having read your full reading list? Or having all of your closets organized and your house finally deep cleaned?

After spending a week coming to terms with our new reality and allowing myself to freak out a bit and come up with a new normal, I’m excited about all that I can accomplish over the next month. I personally have set my goals and I’m looking forward to working on a bit of them each day, until the 30 days is up.

Anxiety Gets You Nowhere

Anxiety will keep your brain laser focused on all the threats outside. Update your thinking by updating your thoughts, whatever that looks like for you. All you have in your control are your thoughts about your circumstances. Get excited about how you can use this opportunity for changing habits and updating behavior.

Set Your Goal

To make it easier, come up with one goal for the next 30 days. Because it’s easy and measurable, I will use the example of weight loss. Many of us are over eating right now, unable to get to the gym or our yoga class, and the fridge is RIGHT THERE every day all day. So you’ve got 30 days, or 4.25 weeks. That’s say, an 8 lbs weight loss for the month. Or you can organize all your closets this month. You’ve got 8 (or 5 or 12) closets, that means two per week of it’s 8 closets.

How to Set and Keep Your Goal

Set out your measurable goal. Break it down into bite sized tasks (no pun intended).

If it’s weight loss, what is your plan of attack? Will you be reducing your carbs? Will you be using intermittent fasting to kick start your weight loss? Get specifics what what will change. Then plan for tomorrow. If you’re doing IF (which I do), plan for your window opening and closing tomorrow and stick with it. Plan your meals (and for your family’s if applicable).

If it’s your closets, look at your closets and really catalogue mentally what’s in there . Allow your brain to start working out what should go and what should stay. Allow your brain to work on how to solve what you’ll do with the stuff that needs to go. Will you trash it? Will you put it in the garage to give away? When do you have time to start organizing? Two per weekend? 1 hour per day? Let you brain loose.

Use visualization each morning and night to keep you motivated and focused. Really imagine the scale at the end of the month showing you the new weight. Feel your body and how much better you sleep and how much looser your clothes will be. Really get into it and allow yourself to feel the buzz. Your brain will get to work while you sleep, helping you come up with ways to solve this puzzle.

Think of the closets and how much lighter you’ll feel being able to use the closets quickly and easily and that you’re no longer burdened with items you don’t want. Picture them as complete neat and tidy. Again, your brain will get to work while you sleep, helping you come up with ways to solve this puzzle.

Keep Changing Your Thoughts to Those That Serve You

If your brain comes up with something about how you can’t get it done, notice your thoughts and upgrade the thought. Allow it to be and allow it yourself to acknowledge it as it really it. And then change the thought to one that will serve and empower you, allowing you to feel better.

Rinse. Repeat. Rinse. Repeat. You have 30 days to use. Use them to serve you.

And then do the work. Open and close your IF window. Use the weekend to clean your closets. No excuse. Just do it. It’s 30 days.

You got this!